九降風

其實【九降風】已經看過很多次了,但是沒有一次完全看懂過,也讀過許多人的觀後感想,但是沒有一個滿意的,大多是談自己也有過類似的高中生活。幾天前我從自己的 itune 隨機選歌聽到我期待,意外的從歌詞中我找到自己對這部電影的解釋。仔細檢討,我不確定是否因為自己沒有一個相似的青春時光所以沒看懂電影 ,還是青春過了太久已經忘記與它道別的時候,或其實一直覺得還停留在青春裡,抗拒看懂電影殘忍的描述青春的流逝。

 即使曾經不是七個叛逆輕狂的少年,但是一定也能九位學生中找到自己曾經扮演的角色。鄭希彥對我來說就是青春的代表,如風般,與他有關係的人都曾被吹動,自由奔放。青春是信念,也只有相信它的人才能被青春影響,青春給予夢想,就像時報鷹給予少年們的幻想,它需要被崇拜,像是小芸(鄭希彥的女友)喜歡鄭希彥一樣,對她而言,鄭希彥做了她渴望而不敢嘗試的事,在學校壓抑的制度下,七位少年不受束縛,他們聚集在頂樓,與藍天最接近的地方。青春無敵,想做什麼就做什麼,騎車沒駕照,蹺課,打撞球,喝酒,抽煙等等,只要在青春當下,就不必對自己的行為負責任。

 在現實與不切實際的任性拉鋸戰中,我們終究總要學會懂事,與青春告別。 看似陽光燦爛的鄭西彥,和青春一樣其實是很脆弱的。 鄭希彥發現他的任性開始產生負面影響,首先是好友湯啟進被打,接著是小芸再也無法忍受希彥的其他女友,在認識愛情現實面後,小芸以書信的方式向希彥告別,後來其他人物也漸漸感到原來他們所了解的友情,其實根本經不起考驗,口頭上直呼兄弟,但在朋友受難時,沒人有勇氣為誰挺身而出。最後一場意外,青春走了,留下了只有看似青春的形體,少年們突然必須從原來不太認真的態度談論對鄭希彥是否有去醫院的必要,到後來必須完全為自己的行為負責,退學,留下犯罪前科,或是完全放棄任性當個好學生。道別青春對每個人物都是一翻掙扎,即使學會負責最後拿著棒球棍在校園追逐林博助的李躍行,也終於在林博助坦然說出自己的膽怯,才終於面對原來他們都必須正式告別青春的事實。

 鄭希彥給予夢想,如同他仿簽廖敏雄的名子在棒球上,給了信以為真的小湯,最後小湯拿著這箱仿冒簽名球面對廖敏雄本人,夢想是真的假的已經不再重要,至少曾經擁有過。拋出青春,開始新的下一步,也許能夠支持我們成長的就是一種期待,如張雨生的歌詞說的,期待有一天能夠回到這最初的愛,是這個期待使我們能夠昂首闊步,告別青春,不留一絲遺憾吧!

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時間過得真快, 暑假已經過了ㄧ個月了, 可是覺得好像才剛考完最後ㄧ個期末考。

這個暑假我選修日語,想說為了明年可能會去日本遊學ㄧ年作準備,

原以為小時候看動漫和日劇長大, 應該是不會太難吧,

可是沒想到在暑修語言實在太可怕了。

即使暑假有四個月,暑修課程的時間總數和平常學期ㄧ樣,

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於是這學年我的最後期末考, 心理學史, 在溫哥華Canucks以二比一, 七戰四勝擊敗芝加哥黑鷹隊的歡呼聲中結束了。

對許多大四的心理學學生而言, 這也是他們最後ㄧ個大學考試,
考試前教授對我們說要對自己的知識有把握, 有自信的完成這最後的考試 。徵詢大家同意後.

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“The Return” could be interpreted in
several ways. On the surface level, it is the return of the father to the children.
It can also be interpreted as the return of the children from the trip with
their father. The irony is that, in both interpretations, the characters do not
return. The father is unable to return, and the children could never return to

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  • Feb 26 Sat 2011 12:34
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今天在debriefing的時候(實驗後的步驟),

和ㄧ位與我同樣是指導學生(directed studies student)

聊到他正在幫忙研究的project, 非常有意思!

Moral psychology(道德心理學) 裡為了測量ㄧ個人的道德推測程度(moral reasoning), 設計了ㄧ係列的moral

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  • Feb 23 Wed 2011 15:39
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二月的第三個禮拜正是UBC ㄧ周的讀書假(reading break), 

目的是讓學生能利用這個星期準備期中考,

雖然我相信大部分學生都希望它的意義是to take a break from reading.

今天兩科期中考並連著, 總共三個鐘頭, 昨晚沒睡,

幸好考試好像沒有很難, 不過現在的我根本不想管分數怎樣,

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結果LC 才剛回來, Darren 就要回台灣了,

於是決定要在Darren離開前開ㄧ次聚會,

地點則在溫哥華最高級的美術博物館用餐,

我想西岸應該找不到比這更奢華的聚會地點吧。

剛進門, 餐裝上的皇家哥本哈根餐組使大家的目光

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即使零度的氣溫也無法澆熄對新年第ㄧ天的熱情,

衝著好天氣, 我帶著爸媽到downtown感受人氣

景點是coal habor, 這座玻璃城是據說是中心最昂貴的地段,

奧運結束後, 他們把聖火炬留下來, 在特別節慶會重燃聖火

池水也結冰了呢!

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很多人跟我說他們不喜歡ㄧ個人上餐廳或咖啡館

原因是怕寂寞, 尤其是當其他人都好像有人陪伴

不過我還滿喜歡自己ㄧ個人品嘗甜點

雖然人多可以交換吃不同口味,

但是我還是會再找機會ㄧ個人上同ㄧ間甜點店,

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On our way back home, Pavel was talking to me about the lectures that he has been giving the past week. He said that it didn't feel that long ago when he was a student sitting in a lecture hall in Jerusalim, and that he is in a reversed role made him feel old.

Time flies faster than the nimbus 2000 that Harry Potter rides in the first book. A term has already gone by, and I could feel that my second bachelor graduation isn't far in the future from now. It seems like the older I get, the less amount of time I'm able to hold on to.

Recalling the kid that I was in grade 6 before I came to Canada, I wonder if he had known the person that I am, would he look forward to becoming that person?

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At this point in time, I am sincerely resenting school, and will be for the next 192 hours.

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Who knew that studying History would make one hungry? I had this experience twice now when I was studying history, and the image and smell of McDonald's (short of sound) crept into my consciousness and demanded that I satisfy this craving before any more course-related information could be ingested - it's like the people who are lactose intolerant have to take lactase to digest dairy products.

So as a typical problem inherent in all correlational studies, there's always an unexamined third variable that could have influenced my choice of mid-night snack, which is an obvious one, too : nothing is opened after 11pm at where I live, except McDonald. Sigh~~ how I wish it was the taiwanese style fried chicken nuggets or oyster pancake that I had consumed instead of the double quater ponder.

McDonald has the reputation of making the craver feel satisfied for the first couple bites, maybe the third bite too, and beyond that it's bleh~

So I brought along the book that I was reading and had planned to study at the restaurant. But a group of drunken working men and women, who obviously had their cravings for the food from the alcohol they had consumed, stepped into the restaurant right after me. I was glad that they didn't think that I needed some lightening up with their dumb-ass jokes and the ew burps that made me enjoyed one less bite from my quarter ponder.

At least I managed to find a relatively unpopulated spot at a corner beside the window. There were some other students at the restaurant who were studying their relevant subjects. But the shouting from that drunken group of men and women made me change my mind about staying there after I finished my burger. These people remind me of how I always wanted some peace and quiet when I was having lunch in high school, but the kids at the hallway were loud, and I couldn't eat in the classrooms because they were locked when the teachers weren't there.

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